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| Wednesday, April 12, 2006 |
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where reason ends
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I saw you this morning.
Back at the mess hall, you were conversing with a friend over breakfast. Though at first glance I barely recognized you, as my eyes were still drooping and I was still so sleepy, I just couldn't miss those eyes.
The morning air was crisp and I was sniffing all the way to the mess hall, still tired from sleeping late last night. But seeing you there smiling, those oriental eyes crinkling in laughter... damn... I don't know... I can't describe the feeling... sheer exhilaration?... pure bliss?... words really couldn't say it...
Looking over the top of my GA mug, stealing glances in between sips of hot chocolate, I just couldn't take my eyes off you. I could have stayed there watching you the whole day . I hope you didn't notice, especially when I would avert my eyes each time they met yours.
Funny how I only started to notice you these past few weeks. We'd bump into each other at the lobby every now and then; I'd see you at the TV area and meet you along the Freshie Walk, and always, I would be drawn to those eyes... I don't really know what's so special about them. It's just that I find them so... interesting.
You would almost always be alone whenever I'd see you. You seem to be a loner as I rarely see you with friends and only once or twice have I seen you smile. There's something about you... the thick straight hair... those thin lips... the brooding looks, with those sad but penetrating eyes... I can't put on a finger on just exactly what makes you so intriguing.
You're everywhere and you don't know what it does to me. I'm falling apart and I'm finding it hard to recognize the bits and pieces that used to be "me".
Whatever happened to my emotional detachment and cool composure? If ever there was a virus that could lodge itself into my system and I could never seem to be able to flush out, it would be you. Whenever I lay down in bed, the image of your face floats in the darkness. You're always there.
Argh... what is wrong with me? I can't even believe I'm actually putting this in writing, in the internet of all places! Have my wits finally deserted me? I don't - can't - seem to be able to understand... that seems to be happening to me often these past few days.
Damn it.
It can't be. I think I've fallen. Hard.
Oh great, perfect timing... just when Valentine's is just around the corner...
And all because of a pair of eyes...
God help me.
February 1o, 2006 Labels: -bleep- |
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Name: remrick
Home: Surigao City, Philippines
About Me: Let me tell you what I'm not:
I am not predisposed to bare my guts and soul here in the internet for the whole world to see just for the sake of it. It's just that I like writing, in the free and unstructured way that blogging provides for. I simply want to express what I think and feel. Is that too much to ask? Which leads me to my next point...
I am not invulnerable, in spite of all my attempts to put on a face of cool composure, and desperately wanting I was good enough to fool myself.
In short, I am not really what I seem.
So, would you still take my ramblings seriously?
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